I Am So Jealous....

of all of you who find these ridiculously great buys at garage sales - especially those of you in the South! A Kate Spade bag for $1??? Come on! Here in SD they would put $50 on it and then say they can't come down because "do you know how much a KS bag is worth?" Why yes I do.....that's why I am at your garage/tag sale today. Wow!!!

And if you haven't been to Sarah's Art House yet - go right now. Her house is so cool - she is just a great artist in every sense of the word. There are so many things I would like to borrow from her - and then keep them because I have chemo brain still. Love it!!

And I'm redoing my bedroom in chocolate brown and a ocean blue color and I remembered a post from Sarah at Thrifty Decor Chick about how she used place mats to make pillows that needed to be replaced at her house. Place mats people! Even at Wally World a pillow is like $15.00 - that is highway robbery. So Wal-Mart had a "travel pillow" today that was like $3.00 and I bought a cool chocolate brown striped place mat - opened it up carefully, put the little pillow in and fabric glued the end shut. Voila! Am definitely going to be watching out for more place mats. I think she said she got the idea from Boomer Power? Well whomever thought of it - what a great idea.

So today was day 6 on Abilify. I was wide awake again at 12:30 this morning, still, so I decided in order for me to get some sleep I am going to have to take an Ativan. And sure enough I slept 5 hours straight, got up to use the loo, and went back to sleep and slept until 10. I actually felt chipper today - which is saying a lot for a person who has been so depressed that she's not been able to work some days out of the week.

I do have to go in Monday and get some blood drawn as I've been having some pain in my groin area. I'm an ovarian cancer survivor - not once have I ever heard that this could mean something. But I went into my support site for the American Cancer Society and put in groin pain and up pops the subject a few times - including one woman who is currently have a recurrence. So I called my oncology nurse yesterday and she talked to my doctor and they thought I should get my CA 125 drawn to be sure it's still normal. I don't go back to the doctor until October so I'd rather be safe then sorry. I'm just going to pray it's fine - and go on as usual and work on the depression aspect of my life right now. If the cancer is back - we'll deal with it then. It doesn't even freak me out because I am about 99.9% positive that I'll do treatment one more time and that's it. I love my life, my child, my friends & family - but I cannot do the chemo over and over like some of these brave women continue to do. I don't want to be a 7 year cancer survivor and never have been off chemo for more then a few months. I want to "LIVE" and not be kept alive by poison. And pain. And nauseated. And infections. And special mouth washes. And pain pills. And exhausted. And shakey. And bald.

I won't do it.

Sandy and Patrick know this -

I hope they remember how stubborn I am. lol

NV at This D*mn House must really be feeling poorly - no new posts today and that girl likes to write. Hope you are feeling better soon.

Til next time.